So I have decided that today is the day that I will give you guys an insight into what I’m doing in my life right now and how I came to be here:)
So right now, I am in the middle of an induction week. I have decided to study Adult nursing in Queen’s University, Belfast. This decision wasn’t an easy decision to make. I had already been to college and unfortunately things didn’t quite go to plan.
I studied science in Trinity. I took the course because I was offered it although I didn’t really know if it was what I wanted. I never felt truly ‘at home’ in Trinity and this had nothing to do with the people there! I was very fortunate to have lived with fabulous girls whom I’m still great friends with. I also met fellow students who are now friends for life. I got heavily involved with the ladies rugby team and I did make an effort to get in to the college experience. And reflecting back on my college years there, I enjoyed first and second year, it was in third year that things fell apart. I had specialised in chemistry, which I had enjoyed as a subject but I quickly realised that it was not a field that I wanted to specialise in. I also had to deal with a family illness and things just ‘went south’. I failed and I repeated the year only to fail again. And so I left.
Now some of you may be reading this and saying ‘you tit, why didn’t you just switch specialities?’ and the answer to that is that I am too dam stubborn. I just couldn’t switch but a valuable lesson was learnt- if you are doing something or you’re somewhere that you don’t feel comfortable with, then leave. I regret being a sheep and following the crowd. I wish I had the courage then to just take a year out and work and travel. I wish I could have gone back to the days when I didn’t give two sh*ts what everyone else was doing. But I’m slowly starting to do that (that’ll be another blog post) hence why I’m now studying nursing.
So when I failed again I said ‘feck it’ and withdrew from college and moved back home. That was a particularly difficult time and I’ll discuss that at a later stage. I got a job and worked for the past 16 months as a cleaner in a factory. It wasn’t a job that I hated but I wanted something more fulfilling and I knew it had to be in the medical field. I’m still not sure why I decided nursing was for me, all I can say is that for the first time in a long time, I now feel like I am where I’m meant to be and I feel really comfortable in college. I’m feeling determined and confident that I am going to succeed.
So the take home message or moral of the blog is to listen to your body when it’s telling you that you’re in the wrong place. Too many of us follow the crowd when we should follow the beating of our own heart and do what makes us truly happy.
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